So I was feeling bummed out after my first phone consult cos well, I realised I sucked big time ... I was discouraged and wanted to pull out ... I was wallowing in my self pity and nursing my inner wuss ... But something happened ...
I was queueing up to board the bus when this white woman in her 30s-40s comes up beside me, literally pushes me away and cuts me ... I was like WTF ... so I board the bus fuming cos like that was so just plain rude ... I sat down and I was pissed but didn't wanna say anything ... then I remembered Quality's words ... You sound like a real timid guy, a real nice guy and you let people step over you all the time ....
That hit me real hard at that time and I was like ... No, I am not going to accept 2nd rate behavior from others .... I walked over to her and I looked her straight in the eye and said "Hey, you know what, the way you pushed me just now, it was not too nice" ... then she mumbled something in a soft voice and I just walked away ... I knew she understood where I was coming from .... Quality later told me what I said was rude and I could have said it in a more social way but he was glad I stood up for myself ...
After that I was on fire ... I'm not really sure if timid is the right word to describe me but yes I am nice ... way too nice .... and that's why I developed a real tough exterior ... I'm from Singapore and I'm kinda rough on the edges ... but unfortunately, my "toughness" constantly makes me come off as rude and standoffish in the American culture ... it's an overcompensation ... when I learnt about David D's cocky and funny ... I just ended up being cocky ... not really funny ... so I became this arrogant prick but well many girls in Singapore loved it and of course I bombed big time in America cos I mistook what I experienced back home for real success ...
I don't wanna be an arrogant prick ... I just wanna be badass ...
So when Quality found out I was discouraged, he contacted me and this guy is the best ... he is like the big bro I never had and I really look up to him ... He encouraged me and helped me along ... I'm a newbie ... like seriously new and well maybe you say that well it's cos I paid for the bootcamp that's why he's so nice to me ... maybe, but look ... money doesn't buy you everything ... I don't think he earns much from this and he could have just said, this guy is a whiney loser let's give him his money back and let him wallow in his self pity ... they probably could have found someone else to take the bc in my place and saved them the agony of helping a newbie out but Quality didn't ... He didn't give up on me ...
The guys at APB, they are real brothers ... I PMed Mack, Gatsby and Jewelz when I felt like shit and they replied ... which other community do you get people this tight? Bear in mind, they haven't even met me yet ...
You guys rock!
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Playa
Brick walls are there for you to show your dedication .....
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